Dim the Lights

Dim the lights
Until shadows engulf the faces of everyone
So that I can't tell they aren't me
Because if we lived in a world where no one could see,
Maybe we'd close our eyes and finally see
The pain and joy and truth of our "friends"
'Cause right now I don't see them, I just see skin
Blanketed in styles and meaningless trends
(I, myself, am blanketed in meaningless sins!)
I want to be the Man Without Fear
But it's so hard when my eyes control my ears
See, when the pretty girl talks, she's all I can hear
And like a man hearing a siren, I jump from the pier
But beauty is not skin deep!
Quite the opposite, actually
Skin has the limitation of only being pretty
Because only things of God have the gift of true beauty
This includes sacrifice and selflessness and love
So I'm bathing in gasoline and shedding my own blood
But when it comes time to light the match I panic
"Of course I love You, God, I've just got a better plan it
Leaves me broken, but still covered in flesh
(That flesh will be important when I'm having adulterous sex)
So can't we just try my way, You can still come along?"
You hang Your head, but never leave me alone
Why don't You leave me alone!
It's what I deserve
To lie in my filth and self-inflicted hurt
But instead You give me music and clouds and words
And a body and my parents and a family
And You
You give me Yourself!
Which is more than I have ever done for You!
So blind me, because I'm blind already
And these eyes in my skull are getting so heavy
That they're anchoring me to this Earth that You
Made for me to float away from.